Think of something in the middle of the night.
Picture yourself creating something that makes some kind of change in the world around you.
Write down ideas about how you could turn something imagined into something real.
Look at the page.
Doubt yourself immediately.
Wait a week.
Drop hints that maybe you might possibly have the beginning of something.
Share your idea with a friend you trust.
Say the words quietly and quickly.
Shield your ego.
Hide your excitement.
Wait through the longest fifteen seconds you’ve ever lived.
Watch as their eyes light up and their brain spark ideas.
Listen as they talk about the ways they want to make the idea come to life.
Wonder how you got so lucky, not everyone has friends who want to help you make your dreams come true.
Feel excitement and determination.
Get your hopes up.
Fill late nights with inside jokes and revisions.
Swear to stay true to the vision and each other.
Let the optimism of a promise overtake you.
Build the idea out.
Second guess yourself and everything you have ever thought.
Let pessimism seep into your brain from the tiny corner where you keep all your failures hidden.
Decide to quit.
Draft an email.
Don’t send it.
Finish the idea.
Recognize it’s time to share with the world.
Keep it to yourself a little longer.
Allow it to exist in the space between what is and what could be.
Savor the moment where it’s still yours and yours alone.
Wonder if you can keep it there forever.
Put it into the world.
Hope people care.
Obsess over numbers.
Hate yourself for that.
Worry you might have failed completely.
Hear from friends and friends of friends that they’re proud of you.
Connect with a stranger across the world who is happy you’re doing the thing you’re doing.
Feel like a fraud because you can’t imagine the value or the glamor of your own work.
Feel proud that at least someone cares.
Allow both to happen.
Continue to create.
Stress about how to improve constantly.
Disagree on what it should be.
Wake up from nightmares about the whole thing being a mistake.
Lose a friend over conflicting perspectives.
Examine your choices up to that point.
Dissect whether or not you were the problem.
Believe you did the best you could.
Celebrate the small victories.
Realize none of it matters.
Realize all of it matters.
Have fun either way.
Start another project.
Begin work right away this time.
Spend a night eating pizza and drinking beers.
Laugh about everything and nothing all at the same time.
Look across from you at the people who are helping your dream come true.
Dedicate yourself to helping them with theirs.
Conclude the journey is enough.
Imagine the future when they ask you how you were able to do it.
Point to this night with these people.